15.May.2008(On a Thursday) Mixed feelings and Happy 23rd Birthday Jane It's now 4.05am, i just got home from Bukit Timah Railway Mall from supper with the folks namely Buddy KongPeng, Sweetheart Sienny, Slim ShengPhuay and Alan. I woke up this morning with mixed feelings. I don't even wish to go to work. I find there's a obstacle that i can't overcome. And that is putting on a fake front. When the alarm clock alerts me to wake and and prepare for work, all i did was to continue to lay on my bed and thinking why my senior is so mean. It might seemed childish for a 22 year old to think like that but i just can't overcome this. I so much want to break down now. I really thinks its stupid to contribute so much and in the end what you get is nonsense. It's a dog-eat-dog world, it's either you live with it or quit it. I don't wish to talk to her as i can't bring myself to fake. Even the rest of the department knows how she treated me but i just can't bring myself to be mean to her. I need to break free!